Sunday, August 31, 2008
i felt a lil sad after watching nus open. before saying why i was sad, i shall talk about wad i did when i was sad. i went all the way back to kovan, thinking of wad to eat (i eat a lot when im sad). wanted to spam macs and kfc, but realised hey there's curry chicken noodle. ok i got myself a bowl and sat down to eat alone. i am never ashamed of eating alone, its like just me and my foood so i can fully appreciate it. then went to the confectionary, got myself a mini yam snowskin mooncake then a choc ball which i threw away coz it sucked. the mooncake was v nice though. then had bubble tea which accompanied me all the way home.
ok now. nus open. brought back many memories of playing softball but more importantly, i see how james, yr and keefe are so into the uni life already. one thing tt struck me was, when keefe said, hey yr can drive us back to hall to change. (coz they had d&d at night). three things. first yr can drive around --> freedom, other than the fact tt he alr CAN DRIVE. second - back to hall, its like still a place where we live away from home, but somehow that sounds a lot different that back to camp. third - d&d at night, fun, music, people.. so it sucks. no matter how my army is pretty relaxed. add ACCA, add responsibilities that i put upon myself at work, or the things i wanna do is put on my shoulders and im just dragging it along as i wade thru this sea of army live, slowly.. just lookin thru the facebook photos of the various uni stuff also makes me think like, hey there's two more years to this. but then again, somethings still irk me which i will talk about in the next para.
met up with yj and lossy and just talking bout uni for a while (because the convo topic is always army). yj and i were like, ok nus bizad orientation is by SDU, so guess we're NOTT going haha. but i know its kinda compulsory so wtf. not that i don't like orientation, and i probably need to know the people there also, just find tt sometimes it goes over the limit. i admit im a pretty conservative guy, but its not coz im a country pumpkin, its coz of my beliefs in perhaps, wad my life should be like. its so so easy to just be immersed in the partying, getting drunk sometimes and have fun, but perhaps its a redundant process to eventually reach the end when you think like ok, all these partying has to stop, because life is getting a lil meaningless. so if im starting at a point when i know all these distractions will pull me down, there isn't much point for me to go back there and mess around right.. so ok. uni will suck everyone into its' culture but u see, uni's eventual aim is to provide the highest qualification for employment. so basically, u can't screw it up. no honours, no nothing man. especially if i have like a degree and a masters to study for, plus ACCA which i will do during uni. i'll be pretty much wrecking my chances if i go into the so called uni lifestyle. for those who can party and still do well, my respect to them, but not everyone can afford to do that i guess. some may be rich, bed of money to fall on. i don't have that chance to. its like now or never. the rat race is on, but for me, im workin for God. =)
i'll win the race to do what i need to do for this rottin world.
6:46 PM