Wednesday, May 19, 2010
why Lord?
I'll continue to trust.
but its so disappointing.
7:45 PM
Monday, May 17, 2010
decided today that i needed to study. so im studying. sigh i read the things really fast, now im worried whether i can rmb everything.
been very frustrated these few days. trivial things though. Mariners keep losing stupidly, liverpool gone case this season. i keep slacking around and not studying ACCA nor Korean. so many books i want to read but just end up surfing youtube. If i want this break to be productive and worth it, i better buck up! and be more disciplined, thats the key
10:38 PM
Thursday, May 13, 2010
i can't afford to look at her
8:33 AM
Saturday, May 8, 2010
My maternal grandfather passed away just last night. and my day was spent at the wake. it was all i could do now as the oldest grandson, to pray and to keep watch, other than helping the adults sort things out as well. I saw a lot of things and understood another part of human life that I have yet to see. I see now even clearer, in retrospect, the struggles in family life, and how sometimes, we as children or grandchildren, really have little time to spend with the elderly. It is ironic in my opinion that there are volunteers who would keep elderly company at homes, where it would be their children's responsibility. Unless of course, they did not bear any children or remained single.
It is the present society's problem, the mindset and just the way of life, of which I am guilty of, that causes this problem. After my two trips to the Philippines, and seeing how family is such an integral part of each person's life and spirituality, I now focus a lot trying to preach the importance of family life and also try to practice it myself. It is difficult though, with the fast-paced life we are in, but it should be no excuse. We are called to that filial piety and love to our loved ones, by virtue too, that we call them that in the first place.
There are just a lot of thoughts going through my mind and since it is my blog, i will refrain from making it into a preach. I started blogging again because I needed a place to talk to I guess, somewhere to vent whatever I feel.
Lord, I ask You to be with my grandfather and take his soul into heaven. I also pray that You would always be with us and empower us. Amen.
9:11 AM
Thursday, April 22, 2010
haven't posted for so long. needed a place to shout.
so AHHH
it has been what, 4 years? and i think i may just still feel the same way. but i don't think i dare to do anything about it.
good to know though, that im still alive. just like with Hilda that time.
gotta get it out of my head
8:25 AM
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
perhaps
just perhaps
i haven't forgiven
7:39 PM
Saturday, August 1, 2009
irritated.
think its the result of not praying enough. being such an easy prey to the Devil.
but perhaps im just a bit tired of a lot of things. i need to get away soon. like really soon.
planning something in Sept. go overseas myself. just need some time to think thru wad 2009 had been like. its been..eventful.
6:54 AM